My intent is not to lead but to do what is right. After long
deliberation, I believe that speaking out is the right thing to do. How do I
know it is the right thing? I don’t. I believe. You can never really know what
is right. The right is a journey. A path. Not a static thing. It lives in an
ever changing environment. Our task is to find it. But you can’t hold on to it.
You can’t put it in your pocket. Whenever you need it you still have to go
through a process, however brief, however subconscious, to produce it. How
exhausting it is to have to produce right all the time. We all use a lot of
right. Knowing the right. You can’t take it from someone else or buy it from
them. You have to produce the right for yourself every time you need it. Whenever
you decide! Should I read more? Should I write more? Should I type the letter z
right now? There is a will behind it all. I can sense it. Others can sense it
too. I also believe this. When others explain to me their belief in god l hear
them affirming my belief. When others express to me, even in the most subtle
ways, kindness or love or positivity? I hear them affirming my belief. My
belief is affirmed in the grandeur of a forest or the play of an animal. My
belief is affirmed in Art and Sports and eating fine meals with friends, laughing
so hard you wet yourself.
We have accomplished amazing feats. When I think of my ancestor, someone I have
direct lineage to, living in a mud hut, manufacturing right for himself. He
must have been. I am the direct result of that. He made decisions for years
before he passed his gene to my ancestral mother and that produced my
grandfather. A man that I have met. Who produced a lot of right in his
lifetime. People are making decisions
all the time and have been since the beginning. Life is this giant web of
decisions. That’s what differentiates life - Decision making. Even the most
microscopic form of life is making some decisions on a fundamental level. Once
decision making stops we call that death.
Our collective decision making is an epic journey that we
are all players in. All decision makers. Now and forever in the past and forever
into the future. It is an amazing river, constantly flowing, currents and bends
everywhere. It sounds so overwhelming! But it is not because we are part of it.
We have control over it. All we have to do is make the right decisions. And how
do we know what the right decision is? You don’t. You have to chase it and ride
it and it takes some unexpected turns and you can spin out. The next
time you catch it you need to bring your knowledge and experience to bear and
ride it for as long as you can. Fortunately you have the assistance of others.
We can collaborate on this. We do collaborate on this. That is the joyous
thing. The more voices we have the more assistance we have. Every interaction
whether it is visual, aural, tactile, has some element of assistance in it. And
you keep collecting little pieces of assistance. You can’t hold them all but
you hang on to the ones that work for you. But there are currents and those are the
effect of others decisions. It is not easy! You have to work at it. I have
found that there are a couple pieces of assistance that work all the time.
Sometimes I lose those but when I get them back I hold on to them more tightly.
Not too tightly. I am riding the rivers of time. Got to flow with it. That
requires a firm yet loose grip. Imagine you are holding a bird. Control it as
best you can but don’t strangle it. Then it no longer has value.
